Joy to the world...

hello everyone! It has been a while since I have been on here cause life is CRAZY! easten going to daycare mommy going back to work and going to the gym... whew! not to mention school!!
But I have to say... I AM BLESSED! I have two amazing men in my life! about 4 more months and my bestfriend/husband will be home... I pray and hope that every military member away from home this Christmas finds peace and joy- and feels a little bit of the Christmas spirit to fill their hearts!!
Above is a picture of my handsome baby boy, and a recording of me singing a very special song :)

happy thanksgiving world...

What are you thankful for this year? I am thankful for my new baby boy and my amazing husband :) what more can I say other than I am blessed...

The joy of deployments ending and families being reunited

A friend of mine had the chance to welcome home her husband today. He left for deployment BEFORE their baby girl was born. Today she got to meet her daddy for the first time. She spent 6 months without her husband, and she is helping me get through my 6 months without mine. I fell such joy in my heart for this tiny family- cause there is nothing better than being together. To all the families that have had to welcome home a husband, wife, brother, sister, mom, dad, son, or daughter..... make sure its an amazing welcome home. Let them know how much you missed them. Show them how much you love them. I will be able to experience welcoming home my husband in 4ish months and that will be a joyful day.

3 years as a United States Airman

Three years ago I joined the United States Air Force. I was in the 322nd Training Squadron, part of Flight 092. Regulators! I am proud to be able to stand next to my husband and defend this great country. I am proud to be an American Airman.

God Give Me Strength

Johns back window on his car got hit with a gold ball and it shattered... things just coming at me, and I just keep telling myself that if God is letting this come at me then he knows i can handle it... i just need to keep having faith in myself... Cause I have a beautiful baby boy counting on me and an amazing husband counting on me... God give me strength to take on these mountains... I need help hiking over them.

The love of a father...

Even from across an ocean daddy can calm his son. Just the voice of John caused his son to stop crying. John is such a great daddy. That is all I have to say.... 

Love....

I have two people in my life that fill my heart with such joy. My husband and my son. I am completely in love with them both. When my husband left, I finally realized how much I REALLY loved him. I also realized how involved he was in my every day life. The simple things, like taking out the trash- since we had been in the apartment, I had not taken the trash out once... Simply holding his hand during a movie- didn't even realize how much I liked that until he was gone... I realized I took his love and kindness for granted- and I will never do that again. I plan to shower him with love and kindness and affection, just like I always have- but multiply it by a billion. As for our son, I loved him when I was pregnant- but it wasnt until I saw my husband holding him for the first time, I wanted to cry and laugh and well my emotions were everywhere. When I became a wife- I learned a new love, and when I became a mom I learned yet another new love. what do I mean by this? Well, I love my parents, but the love I have for my husband and son are different.
I tell you what, my love for these two amazing men grows stronger everyday. Everyday my husband is gone, my love for him grows deeper, and every time I hold our son, my love gets deeper. Remember to tell those that you love, that you love them.

The Fairytale Ends and the Obstacles Begin

Our relationship went from new to serious pretty fast- we were ok with that. We are bestfriends and we have no worries. A week after we were wed we found out he would be deploying not long after our baby was due to be born. That same week we found out that we were going to have a baby boy (that made daddy proud). Daddy was going to be gone for a minimum of half a year. We are a Mil-to-Mil couple, both Active Duty Air Force. We serve proudly. My husband didn't even think about backing out of this deployment- even though he knew he was going to miss the first months of his sons life. You see- when you join the military you have to go into it knowing that you will deploy- whether you have a family or not. You have signed up for a duty that will cause you to make sacrifices. I feel for ever member of our armed forces and their families that have to go through what John and I are going through. Many people have no idea what our military and their families go through 24/7. We are ALWAYS on duty. we may not be scheduled to go into the office, but we-as members of America's Armed Forces- are ALWAYS on duty. We can be called to go away from our families at any moment. I know a Major in the Air Force who left his pregnant wife to go on a 365 day tour over seas, a SSgt that has never met his daughter- he deployed before she was born. I know an Airman that died from bullet wounds shortly after seeing his son born- leaving his wife and baby boy behind. Today I am home with a wonderful baby boy while my husband is deployed. We are both active duty and soon our son will be going to daycare and I will be going back to work. We have hit our obstacle, our mountain, that we must conquer. We met, fell in love, created a beautiful baby boy, and all the while serving our country. Pray... Pray hard... for those men who never meet their children, the men adn woman who say good-bye to their families before they deploy and never make it home. Yes, my husband and I are facing a challenge- but this is a challenge that militarty members face all the time. Am I nervous about being without my huabnd (best friend)- yes, am I nervous about having our brand new baby all to myself-yes, am I nervous that when my husband gets back I will have to deploy- yes, is defending my country, having a baby boy, and the most amazing husband worth the nervousness and fear? YES. This post jumps all over the place- but I think I said what I wanted to say. One last thing- If God brings you to it, he will get you through it.

The Fairytale Story Part Four

On President's Day 2011, while I wasn't feeling good and still in my pajamas, my husband proposed to me. We were just hanging out at home- spending the day together doing abosolutely nothing. Was it my dream proposal that I had thought he would do? No, it was better. He proposed to me when I looked my worst, and felt like crud- and he made that not-so-good day into an amazing memory. We planned our wedding for 14 May 2011 at Buck Creek State Park. Beautiful place! The day of the wedding was crazy, and I turned into the crazy bride (normal bride thing to do!) We had a simple wedding. The groom wore jeans and cowboy boots, the bride wore a pretty white dress and flip flops. It was raining everywhere around us except at the park that day. The sun beamed across the blue sky- making it a perfect sunny day. The reception was like a giant BBQ- which is exactly how we imagined our wedding. we didn't want anything crazy and fancy- we wanted it to be simple and relaxed (like us). The music was played via iPod. We did have some live music done though! A friend of ours played and sang the song "Simple Man" by Lynrd Skynrd for the mother-son dance. He then accompanied me on the keyboard as I sang "When You Say Nothing At All" by Allison Krauss to my wonderful new husband. God blessed us with sunshine and smiles that day...

Fairytale Story Part Three

We started dating on 25 July 2010. It was the best decision I have ever made. A few months of dating and my "cowboy" gave me a promise ring. He showed up to the hotel I was staying at with yellow roses (my favorite flower) and gave me my promise ring. It was so sweet. When Christmas came, it was time for me to come home. I got a beautiful necklace from him. Funny thing happened too... I broke the chain on that necklace within a week of having it. So, he got me a new chain. Then on 7 February 2011 we found out we were going to become mommy and daddy. At the time we were unsure, nervous, and scared. Little did we know that the angel growing inside me was going to be the biggest blessing of our lives...

A Fairytale Story Part Two

Our first test was when I was deployed to DC (yes DC... strange deployment I know)... I had convinced myself that John was just a great friend- and I told him over and over that he and I would NEVER date... Let me say this: he is now my husband so how wrong I was!. This amazing man I call my husband came to visit me, just as friends. The first time he came was also the first time I met his mom's side of the family. During this visit his oldest sister informed me that she Facebook stalked me- creepy at first but I am ok with it now. While visiting his mom, we were hanging out in his room- it was then I realized that I was trying to fool myself. Not only did I kinda-sorta like this guy, I kinda-sorta had fallen in love with him. It was that moment- chatting with him while sitting on his bed that I realized I wanted him to be with me for the rest of my life... God had that plan for me already, it just took me a while to realize it.

A Fairytale Story Part One

I met my husband at a chapel service on base. I had "met" him a few other times, but we never said more than a few words to another. We were talked into going camping with some chapel friends- and I had to hitch a ride with him to the camp site (I didn't have a car yet). We ended up driving two hours in a car together- leaving base as strangers and arriving to the camp site as acquaintances. We ended up having to share a tent, because then tent I was supposed to borrow from our friend was "forgotten". We went hiking the next day, and we were left to hike together- everyone else ditched us. It was that hiking trip that I believe showed us that we were going to be great friends. My now husband was so easy to talk to (and still is). On that camping adventure we also went canoeing and this gave us more time to get to know one another. This was the start of the greatest friendship I have ever had.. God works in the most unique of ways...