Proud To Be An American

Proud To Be An American

Sunday, October 30, 2011

The Fairytale Ends and the Obstacles Begin

Our relationship went from new to serious pretty fast- we were ok with that. We are bestfriends and we have no worries. A week after we were wed we found out he would be deploying not long after our baby was due to be born. That same week we found out that we were going to have a baby boy (that made daddy proud). Daddy was going to be gone for a minimum of half a year. We are a Mil-to-Mil couple, both Active Duty Air Force. We serve proudly. My husband didn't even think about backing out of this deployment- even though he knew he was going to miss the first months of his sons life. You see- when you join the military you have to go into it knowing that you will deploy- whether you have a family or not. You have signed up for a duty that will cause you to make sacrifices. I feel for ever member of our armed forces and their families that have to go through what John and I are going through. Many people have no idea what our military and their families go through 24/7. We are ALWAYS on duty. we may not be scheduled to go into the office, but we-as members of America's Armed Forces- are ALWAYS on duty. We can be called to go away from our families at any moment. I know a Major in the Air Force who left his pregnant wife to go on a 365 day tour over seas, a SSgt that has never met his daughter- he deployed before she was born. I know an Airman that died from bullet wounds shortly after seeing his son born- leaving his wife and baby boy behind. Today I am home with a wonderful baby boy while my husband is deployed. We are both active duty and soon our son will be going to daycare and I will be going back to work. We have hit our obstacle, our mountain, that we must conquer. We met, fell in love, created a beautiful baby boy, and all the while serving our country. Pray... Pray hard... for those men who never meet their children, the men adn woman who say good-bye to their families before they deploy and never make it home. Yes, my husband and I are facing a challenge- but this is a challenge that militarty members face all the time. Am I nervous about being without my huabnd (best friend)- yes, am I nervous about having our brand new baby all to myself-yes, am I nervous that when my husband gets back I will have to deploy- yes, is defending my country, having a baby boy, and the most amazing husband worth the nervousness and fear? YES. This post jumps all over the place- but I think I said what I wanted to say. One last thing- If God brings you to it, he will get you through it.

4 comments:

  1. Oh Sweetie... your words are flowing from your heart. I often refer to what you are going through right now as a "Vegetable Soup of Emotion". You are most likely experiencing so many different feelings, some of them contradicting the other. Pride, fear, love, nervousness...but holding on to faith, love and hope is so critical. You can do this. God did bring you to this and God will see you through it.
    ~AM

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  2. what a joy to know that there are still loving relationships -
    and that your mother-in - law 'sings' your talents..
    and congratulations on your son-a gift from God---
    and prayers for the safety of your husband during his deployment---
    carol-CS

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  3. AirmanMom said to come for a visit.I like your blog.and if you go jumoping all over the place with it hey go for it.Big Time Hug from an former USAF member.

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  4. your mother in law is my hero, keep strong and thank you for your service.

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